::I didn't ever think I'd have to write this one.

It's been awhile. I realize that sometimes life gets in the way of being able to articulate listening to music to just enjoy it, and making listening to music work.

Most of my time has been spent really behind my sweet Canon 60D snapping amazing photos of many of the shows that I go to at Docs Music hall and well occasionally other venues.

Right now I'm listening to WLBC because my I Tunes which is loaded up with local favorites like Michael Martin Band, Tonal Caravan, When Not If, and a band called Overman really makes me sad and pissed off at the same time.

My absolute favorite song that I PLAY all the time is voiced by Jon McKinney. Such a travesty that he is no longer a part of Tonal Caravan. I literally cried when I found this out, I cried a lot actually, in public.
I feel this travesty is like kicking Scooby Doo out of Mystery Incorporated. How in the hell does this happen? Now I have no idea what transpired, and I'm in no way able to know what actually happened, but I have an opinion, I always do, I'm still pissed and angry and sad.

I feel like I had a friendship with the other boys in that band, but I couldn't even look them in the eye. I couldn't listen to the show at Docs, I wanted to throw up.

The only thing, that makes sense for me is to be a hater.

It's the same songs, but it's not the same, personality matters, it matters so so so so much... the groove has got to be there. Jon's way of playing was just what I liked.

I know it's just a bass, just a bass... but what the hell do you dance too but that thunk thunk thunk.
But when Jon plays it, it was this magical Kathunk a funk a thunk. I miss that.

I know there are hurt feelings on both sides, I know it was a business decision, just like any employee getting fired for any reason... but when you fire a guy at Mcdonalds I don't give a fuck, because I don't know them personally... when you get embroiled with the entire band it is so hard to see things change like this...

I'll eventually give them a fair listen, but I know it's not going to matter.

When large signed acts change a drummer or a bass player nobody cares... because it's Toby Keith... It's about the vocalist... I don't listen to those people live...

People matter in live music.

I really really like the boys in Tonal Caravan. I really do, they are awesomely talented musicians, but

it's like being engaged and getting your stuff back via UPS with no notice. I can't help but think there was some conspiracy afoot... I've been to almost all of their concerts.

I might have had a huge crush on their former bassist, ok it's no secret, but my point is that the way you perceive music, i.e. why you listen to a particular band, makes them totally sound different when that reason doesn't exist anymore.

I mean I know this isn't the end of the world, but for me it feels like it.

Blah blah blah things change, life moves on. Yes it does, but that doesn't mean it's all sunshine and rainbows. I feel this is a dark time for me personally reflecting on the music scene in my fair city.

Thank God for Michael Martin Band... I can que up some good country and cry... It's so Easy for you anybody? It's like Muncie Music Inception right there folks.